It’s been such a long time since I’ve written here that I had to go through the whole ‘forgot password’ business to login. I’d say you don’t even remember subscribing to this blog. The last I wrote I was afraid of failure but also afraid of stagnating. I think I’m fed up with discussing both of these fears. I’ll just say in relation to both those things I’ve become skilled at recognising them and taking steps to rectify my thoughts/behaviours.
I make no claim of regular posting. I don’t even know what shape this blog will soon take. I just know that I have had an overwhelming desire to write again and so here I am.
The desire to write for pleasure likely comes from finally having the mental and emotional space to think about things that are not work focused. In the time since I last wrote here I have written a book. It’ll be on sale through Melbourne University Press and you can pre-order it here.
This has taken up a lot of my energy in the last 12 months, as has the general attempt at managing several research projects simultaneously. There’s this insane disconnect between wanting to discuss how difficult it is to manage the unrealistic expectations in academia and the reality that anything found on the internet can and will be used against you.
I’ve just finished reading Overwhelmed, by Brigid Schulte, and it really reminds you of the value of a work/life balance and also the liberation that comes with refusing to accept the unrealistic standards that are placed on us as ‘ideal workers’, and sometimes, forgetting the never-ending ‘to-do’ list. It’s definitely worth a read if you want to feel validated.
In other (perhaps more exciting) news, I’ll be making a fish curry tonight. This post truly had no purpose except to get me writing again.
I feel like I should sign off with “xoxo Gossip Girl”. And so I will.